This page is an echo of a complex and contradictory soul. It contains poems born of pain, jealousy, and a strange, twisted desire to understand. They are addressed not to the one who stole my heart, but to the one left with a broken one. This is an attempt to comprehend betrayal, to express the unspoken, and perhaps to find some relief in words. These lines are a cry of despair disguised as poetry.
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Shadows on porcelain
Her laughter is like a ringing stream, But in it I hear only deception. You stole my world, my peace, Leaving only ashes and fog. I look in the mirror – there is a stranger, A face distorted by pain and evil. To my lover, you are another, And I am just a ghost in my father's house.
Forbidden Garden
In your eyes, sparks of passion, In mine, only tears and emptiness. I know it's all bad weather, But my heart is bursting from my chest, a dream. It's like an apple plucked from a branch, A forbidden fruit that beckons and burns. I am a wife, in the shackles of this mark, And you are the one who gives freedom. And even though this sin weighs on my soul, I cannot turn away, leave. In your arms I find silence, Far from pain, from lies and melancholy.
Echo of someone else's lips
Your whisper in my ears is like sweet poison, It poisons my blood and mind. I remember the furtive taste of his lips, And in this sin I see my own noise. I am a wife, but in my heart there is another, A lover who stole my sleep. And this pain, it will not subside, Until this season ends.
Broken glass
I see your image in shards of hope, in every movement, in every word. My life is a boundless series of hopelessness, pain and blood. He promised me paradise, promised me happiness, but gave me only lies and deceit. And you are just a shadow, a fleeting storm, a lover who ruined my plan. And even though I know it's sinful, I cannot leave you. In your arms I feel as if I were in another world, where there is no room for melancholy.
Red thread
An invisible thread has bound us, Between wife and lover – you. And this bond, it has not broken, Despite the pain and sin and dreams. I know it’s wrong, That I should hate you. But my heart, it’s so weak, And it cannot forget you, cannot see you.
Double bottom
There are two different worlds in my soul, one for my husband, the other for you. And this duality is like a lyre that plays a melody of sorrow. I am a wife, but in my heart I am a lover, torn between duty and passion. And this pain, it is unbearable, but I cannot refuse you, my happiness. And even though I know it is sinful, I cannot leave you. In your arms I feel as if I am in another world, where there is no room for melancholy.
Stolen watch
Every meeting is a stolen hour, torn from the gray routine. In your arms, I forget about fear, and about pain, and about all the sorrows. I am a wife, but in my heart I am a lover, and this secret gnaws at me from within. But I cannot give you up, because you are my only one, look.
Moon fragments
Your eyes are like shards of moonlight, Cold, bright, alluring. In them I see a reflection of my guilt, And my passion, and my longing, knowledge. I am a wife, but in my heart I am a lover, And this pain does not leave me. But I cannot give you up, For you are my only one, my dream. And even though I know it is sinful, I cannot leave you. In your arms I feel as if In another world, Where there is no room for longing.
Forgotten smell
Your scent is like a forgotten aroma, It haunts me everywhere. I remember every tender look of yours, And every kiss that was a miracle to me. I am a wife, but in my heart I am a lover, And this secret gnaws at me from within. But I cannot give you up, Because you are my only one, look.
Dancing Shadow
You are the dancing shadow of my soul, Elusive, alluring, beautiful. I know these are all mirages, But I cannot give you up, passionate one. I am a wife, but in my heart I am a lover, And this pain does not leave me. But I cannot give you up, For you are my only one, my dream. And even though I know it is sinful, I cannot leave you. In your arms I feel as if I am in another world, Where there is no room for melancholy.
Broken doll
I'm a broken doll in his hands, weak-willed, empty, lifeless. And you're the one who can bring back my fear, and give me back the life I so desire. I'm a wife, but in my heart I'm a lover, and this secret gnaws at me from the inside. But I can't give you up, because you're my only one, look.
Whisper of the wind
The wind whispers your name, reminding me of our secret. I know these are all sins, but I can't give you up, utterly. I'm a wife, but in my heart I'm a lover, and this pain won't let me go. But I can't give you up, because you're my only one, my dream. And even though I know it's sinful, I can't leave you. In your arms, I feel like I'm in another world, where there's no room for longing.
Forbidden fruit
You are the forbidden fruit that beckons me, And I cannot resist you. I know that these are all sins, But I cannot give you up, my dear. I am a wife, but in my heart I am a lover, And this secret gnaws at me from within. But I cannot give you up, Because you are my only one, look.
Empty room
The empty room echoes with our words, reminding me of our passion. I know these are all sins, but I can't give up on you, part of me. I'm a wife, but in my heart I'm a lover, and this pain won't let me go. But I can't give up on you, because you're my only one, my dream. And even though I know it's sinful, I can't leave you. In your arms I feel like I'm in another world, where there's no room for longing.
Last breath
My last breath, my last glance, And I'm drowning in your eyes. I'm a wife, but in my heart I'm a lover, And this secret is in my tears. I know these are all sins, But I can't give you up, my. I'm a wife, but in my heart I'm a lover, And this secret is with me, peace.